In 2012 while Seminar was playing I wrote a letter to Alan and sent it via a fan who was going to see the show. She said she gave it to him, but I never got anything in return to confirm he got it. In my heart I hope he did.
“Dear Mr. Rickman,
My name is Martina Janeska and I live in Skopje, Macedonia. I am 17 years old and a 3rd year student in the “Josip Broz – Tito” high school. I’ve been a huge fan of you ever since I saw your performance in Sweeny Todd. As a part of the younger generation I, of course, first knew you for your role as Severus Snape, but then I did some research and realized that I had seen you in a lot of other movies, but because of your amazing ability to transform I was unable to recognize you. Since then you have been a huge inspiration for and you have sort of given me the courage to do a lot of things.
I’m a huge fan of theater and I love acting and going to plays. Two years ago I founded a Facebook page with my best friend that promotes Macedonian theater. It’s the biggest information source on the topic in my country. We have official and unofficial collaborations with most of the Macedonian theaters and we have gained a lot of respect in the theater circles through running the page, even though we are only 17 years old.
Last year I joined the school drama club and we did a play called “Love Fever”. It was a parody of Shakespeare’s “Midsummer’s night dream” and it was set in a school. I played a boy, who was not part of the loser group or of the cool guy group, but somewhere in the middle. I was helping the Losers do a play by bringing them Angelina Jolie and Megan Fox to help them. It was really funny. The rehearsal process was a drag because we couldn’t organize at all, but the end product was fabulous. We filled the whole hall and everyone thought we were hilarious.
I also write a lot and that’s my real passion. My dream is that one day I’ll publish a successful novel, but right now I’m writing a lot of fan fiction and I’m working on a play that I hope I’ll get to set up before I leave high school. It’s about a teenage girl who falls in love with an actor, but it’s more of an obsession and not real love, because she suffers from the lack of attention of her parents and has a deficit of love which she’s trying to make up by wanting to be with the actor. The names will be an allegory of the feelings they represent. For example the girl’s name will mean uncertainty, the actor’s – safety. It’s a psychological play and I know it’s really hard to write, but a lot of the stuff I’ll be writing will come from my experiences.
But right now my biggest dream is to one day meet you and see you on stage. I hope that after I turn 18 I’ll be able to go to New York, London or wherever you’ll be doing a play. That thing that would make me happiest right now is getting an autograph from you so here’s my address.